Finding Balance

I hate posting when things aren't going my way, but I do it anyway.  I suppose it's therapeutic and one day will be good for my family to know just how real life was for me.  For some reason, almost everyone I talk to or read about in out in the blogosphere is feeling down, depressed, sick, tired and overwhelmed.  Blame it on the economy, the winter that will never end or even hormones, but it seems to be affecting a whole bunch of people.  Things have been busy, crazy and overwhelming here too.  It's times like these when you need some help, but somehow it seems like instead of asking for help I'm offering it.  I mean, what do you do when everyone else around you is struggling too?  Everyone I know is busy and overwhelmed and has too much on their plate.  There have been so many tasks and so many people to help, that I haven't had one second to think about myself.  It's amazing how quickly your cup depletes when you don't take a few moments to fill it back up.  My patience is running so thin and I hate that.  Like too many of my friends, I think I need a major break, but cannot seem to fit one in.  Here are some of the things that are out of whack right now.  

• I have no patience for this remodeling project - but I need patience
• Our routine is off
• I haven't been to the gym in way too long
• I haven't found enough time for scriptures/prayer/meditation
• My kids get into everything and just are not minding me lately (which I'm sure has something to do with the interruption in our routine but still - I could go crazy here)
• I "refound" the few pounds I lost before all this chaos began (but what do you expect with no gym time and so much crappy food?)
• I feel so overwhelmed about some of the news I received about my children that it practically consumes me some days
• I feel so afraid and so protective of my kids that I feel like I can't let them into the real world right now
• Anthony's mom is sick.  It's not my place to talk about her situation, but she is not doing well. As one of his main care givers, what all this means and how he is reacting to it is very stressful and difficult to deal with.  

I could go on and on, but I won't.  I hate feeling this way and I hate talking about it even worse, but I want to journal about my whole life, which right now is way out of whack.  I can't seem to find the balance that I so desperately need.  I'm a planner by nature so here's my plan.  I'm going to try to fit in my spiritual moments, get back to the gym, and get a routine back with my kids so I will be better prepared to have patience with the end of this remodeling project.  And I'll pray for sun so we can get out of the dang house once in awhile.  Wish me luck!