Crazy Mom

Okay, I am a bad mom. I swear I try and I try, but sometimes I just can't do it. Yesterday was a horrible day. I wasn't in the best mood anyway and had a million things to get done. I needed some sort of a pick-me-up and just couldn't get it. You know the kind of day where you wake up negative or sad or just down about things and can't get past it? Maybe it was the snow. Whether Dylan fed off of my negativity or what, I will never know, but that kid about drove me crazy. It was a long hard day - the kind you see on Super Nanny. Dylan wouldn't even stay on time-out. It took me at least 45 minutes to get 3 minutes out of him. Ahh....I was so ready to freak out. At one point, I put him in the car for time out because Preston was asleep so I couldn't put him in his room. Honestly, am I the only one with this problem? He is an awesome kid, but can test me more than anyone. I finally asked Marcos to come home and help. I got the kids fed and then went to the gym for an escape. I was gone an hour and called to check in. This is how the conversation went: Me: Hello, Marcos: What is going on here? I can't handle this anymore. You need to come home right now. Dylan has peed all over the house. Me: I'll be home in a minute. So much for R&R at the gym. At least I got my workout in, but so much for my sanity. It was there and then gone again. I don't know what the deal was. He was reacting to something I'm sure and sometimes he just wants attention, even if it's negative attention. Oh, how I try. I read all the books, all the articles, watch and follow advice from people like the Super Nanny...I'm consistent, stern and loving. Hmm...I don't know what the problem is. He is an angel for almost everyone else, which makes me wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I've been told that many kids are that way and have their struggles at home, but I have got to figure this out if I'm going to be even close to a sane mother. Any thoughts? Maybe I need to trade kids with someone with a similar problem. If he's good for everyone but me then maybe a break from me is the answer. Just kidding. I don't know what to do, but I'm going crazy here!